Friday, October 17, 2008

Chemo 1, Day 15

Okay, somebody lied. My hair hasn't completely fallen out on Day 15 and Day 16 as I was told. Today is Day 15 and I still have my little buzz cut. Only one small patch of missing hair. I thought maybe I had cut it too soon, but I am happy that we did it last Saturday. I am so comfortable going without a wig, hat or scarf at work. I just wish it was summer so I could be au natural 100% of the time.

I also have phantom hair. I was shopping for scarves and hats on my lunch today at Marshall's and saw a bin of blow-dry brushes. I always "need" another size brush or another gizmo for my hair. As I started walking towards the bin to look, it was like "Duh! You don't need a hair brush because you don't have any hair, silly"! And when I caught someone really looking at me, my first thought was, "what the heck are they looking at!?" Then I remember I don't have hair. But maybe they are looking at how cute my hat is. That's it, I'm sure! :-)

My energy is very good, taste buds are still screwy. I was so sure that an egg salad sandwich would taste good today. Wrong-o! Zero taste and only texture. Despite increased energy, 3 pm seems to be the time of day I start to crash. Today was especially hard, I could barely keep my eyes open. It was so nice to have the quiet room to go to today. We'll bring a pillow, a blanket and other items to the room this weekend in preparation for the next treatment.

My mom and step-dad are arriving for a visit tomorrow from Post Falls. Hope mom does okay with my shaved head. If it was my baby, I'd be crying. But then we all know I cry easily. We saw them at the end of July before Vic's and my surgeries. Geesh, August seems so long ago, but really it wasn't. What a month that was. It's nice to reflect on how far we have come in the cancer journey and how much stronger we are emotionally and spiritually!

While it's sad, in one sense, that I get poisoned again in a few days after just getting my body back to "normal", we know what to expect and it is less scary. We will be ready for the nausea - no adding a new anti-nausea med each day cause I have the top-dog anti-nausea med here in the house. We will be ready and prepared for the side effects. And with this infusion, we are half way to being done!


  1. Aw Renee - Only you would see the humor in your situation! What a wonderful attitude you have! We love you and wish you the best next week in the next infusion.


  2. By round 2, you're already a pro! The nausea part gets easier, but it takes a bit longer to bounce back from each successive one. Before you know it, your hair will be sprouting back and you'll be looking back at it all. It is a helluva journey but it'll make you stronger in ways you never thought possible. Chin up and Gitter Done :)