Thursday, August 21, 2008

Shower The People

Aug 21

Can't write much as the pain pills are in the system, but I wanted to let you know that I am doing pretty good. Last night I slept in 2 hour increments, getting up to drink liquids and eat something. I didn't want a pain pill as I was very nauseous. Kind of silly since I was in some pain, but I wanted to find out if it was the meds that was making me sick.

Yesterday, I did not take my advice that I give to others . . . . .eat every 2 hours and drink lots of fluids. Bad me! Vic did go this morning to get a few things that I thought I could eat and I've been doing my best to eat something and drink fluids.

He is such a great husband and caregiver! Even tho he isn't 100% back to normal, he is helping me out so much. He is bringing me the pills and food since I forget what time I ate or took the last pain pill. Vic helped with my shower after my nap at 3:30 pm. I feel like I have run a marathon . . who would have thought that eating and washing could take so much energy.

I did peek at the incisions and sutures. . ewww. The lymph to the right of the right breast, kind of under the arm pit, is about 3-4". The port on the left side of the chest between the breast and the shoulder, is about abut 1.5". The ta-ta incision on the right is about about 3". I didn't really want to look at the breast but I did. And I cried. We will trust that the tissue will reshape and fill in a bit. The pain is suprisingly not from the breast inciscion, but rather the lymph node and port, with the port being the most uncomfortable.

It has taken me 45 minutes to write this as I keep dozing off. So guess I should get off the computer and just give in to the sleep.

I love you all and I can't say it enough how much I appeciate your support!


  1. Hi Goosie.. Hope you are doing better today. I can't imagine what you are going through. Looking at the "damage" cancer can do to one's body must be awful. Just remember, you are not defined by a breast or lack thereof, you are defined by who and what you are as a human being, and that my friend you have aced! So hold your head high and proud.. you can do this with Vic and God's help.
    I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

    Love ya.. Toni