Vic is getting around a little bit, but finds that he is tired and out of breath just walking down the hallway. But he doesn't complain and yes, I still hover. Or maybe, I didn't realize how stubborn he is. lol I've shared with him my sage wisdom (don't gag) on how to survive post-ops, like eat something every 2 hours, even if it's just a bite; take the laxatives while taking the pain meds. . .and take the pain meds before you need them!
Vic will call the doc tomorrow to see if the pathology report is ready.
I am flip flopping on the surgery and chemo. I'm wondering if I should have another ultrasound to see if the tumor has grown larger. If it has, then I should do chemo first to shrink it. Am I just anxious to go bald? :-)
However, I have to wait until the BCRA gene testing comes in. Then I get to decide if I want to have a bilateral mastectomy - or just do the lumpectomy. Unfortunately, the results probably won't come in until the day before the lumpectomy. I have to remember that I am in control and I can cancel that surgery anytime I want to, so there!
Decisions, decisions, decisions. I thought I was done with them! It's the fuel behnd the rambling thoughts and stress. I so want this over and be able to sleep through the next 4 months. Wouldn't that be neat? I just go into hibernation and come out in January with it all behind me and 12" of hair. Dreams do come true, sometimes.
Time is running out to get all those things that I thought needed to be done before surgery done. Like cooking meals and freezing them so Vic or I can defrost and nuke. Or get the wig/hats/scarves/whatever purchased while I have energy. Finish organizing the upstairs "junk" room that I started in March or May (seems so long ago). Get the yard weeded and bushes/trees trimmed.
Okay, so we'll back it up a bit and do what we can. Anyone try those Dinners Are Ready places where they make meals and you freeze to serve later? Can I hire a cook/caterer? Can I just not go through this journey? Dang it. I don't want to be brave and strong.