Saturday, May 9, 2009

Tea for Two

Whoa! It's been a while since I updated. The delay isn't because I've been out having fun. . . . shoot dang!

My company laid off 24 people; 6 being from my department. One of the positions was the other Admin Asst. My supervisor is doing her best to keep the other admin's work off my desk, and I am so appreciative that she is doing this. I've been covering evening meetings, at least 2 a week, and it has drained my level of energy back into the fatigue arena. This week there were two meetings, both beginning at 7 pm with one ending at 9 pm and the other 10 pm. I start winding down my day at 8 pm!

I started back into yoga two weeks ago and it feels good to finally be doing something other than walking a little bit each day. The fatigue is such a catch-22. I needed exercise to help alleviate the fatigue, but sometimes felt too fatigued to exercise. Doing some type of exercise during chemo and radiation would have been good for me, but I found myself doing no exercise other than going for treatment and/or going to work. Those going through chemo and radiation - please do something. It will definitely help!

Even though the past weeks have been rough due to the evening meetings and the stress associated with the layoffs, I am actually feeling pretty good! The nails are doing much better and filing them very short has helped tremendously. They are still ugly, but I'm happy that I only have to bandage one now every morning -
Mr. Lefty Middlefinger - in order to keyboard.

I received a post card in the mail this week that gave me that catch in the gut. It was from the breast imagining clinic notifying me that I was due for an annual mammogram on June 11th. Could it really be only eleven months since my first digital mammogram and we found something suspicious? It feels like it was forever ago that the cancer was found.

Now I feel so "seasoned" in the cancer patient world. Reading other people's blogs, who are just beginning the journey, brings back so many memories. Sometimes I am awestruck when I think of what my body went through with the chemo and radiation. I let someone do that to me?

Vic is doing very well after his surgery. He still has "discomfort" every now and then, but amazingly has been pretty active. I forgot all about another cancer-related item with him, though. He has a spot in his mouth that the dentist recommended a visit to an oral surgeon to rule out cancer. The dentist said it could possibly be a spot where silver dropped onto the tissue. I now remember wanting Vic to have this done last August before his major surgery . . . he didn't want to, stubborn mule.

Port removal and Relay for Life are this Friday! I'm sure both will be highly emotional events. I am so thankful that I get to walk the survivor lap and watch Vic walk the caretaker lap. Let's hope we both can do it without bawling our eyes out. Dang, I'm tearing up now just typing about it!

It's not too late to make a donation. If you haven't already donated, won't you help me reach my financial goal by donating $10 . . . just $10. Come on, you can do it! Just click on this
link and it will take you to my home page to donate. Plus you get to see a pic of Baby Posh Spice. Thank you so much for your help!!!!

My oldest daughter and I attended a tea last night at my youngest daughter's church. Yummy desserts and a new way for us to celebrate Mother's Day. I am so proud of my two girls. They are magnificent women!

For those of you who are mothers, I wish you a wonderful and relaxing Mother's Day!

Many blessings,



  1. Happy Mother's Day to you too Renee.

    Lotsa hugs and luv..


  2. Even though things sound a bit bumpy ... it looks like you are moving forward ... and that is nice to hear.

    Happy Mother's Day to you.

  3. It's been a whole year now for me, too, since I was diagnosed and I'm right there with you ---- can't believe it all happened! I understand your tiredness, for sure, so be nice to yourself! You've been through a war! The tea party sounded so wonderful! What a great idea!

  4. What the other ladies have said...
    You sound like you are doing just great.. and time doe fly . I am just starting and hopefully in a year I will be in your place too..