If I stop to think about all that has happened in the past year - good and bad - I believe I would be in a puddle of tears and also amazed. Amazed that we came out of the journey stronger in our marital relationship. Amazed that the treatment wasn't too bad. Yeah, that's hindsight talking. Maybe I should go back to the beginning of this blog and re-read what I was feeling and thinking during chemo!
Healthy Survivorship is not about what happens to you, but what you do with what happens to you. Healthy Survivors recognize and grieve their losses. And while they are grieving, they make the effort to look for opportunities to do those things that can be done even better than before because of what they've lost.
I realize that I the need to acknowledge and grieve my loss. I've been stuck at that point in the healing process. Yet, I feel that I am in still in this blasted process until I get the clear scans in December. I'll work on it either way.